Friday, July 25, 2008

Carried to the table...

today i was reading from 2 samuel chapter 9. this particular chapter talks about david's kindness to a man who was broken. the man's name was mephibosheth. (and i thought matt liked some strange names!!) mephibosheth was the son of david's best friend jonathan. at this point in history jonathan was dead...and so was jonathan's father, saul, who wasn't too fond of david. okay...so david was hanging out at the palace and started wondering whether any of saul's family was still alive. see, david promised jonathan that he would be kind to his family. so david caught up with one of the servants who had been saul's servant. this guy, ziba, said that jonathan had one son living, and that he was disabled. david sent for jonathan's son...enter mephibosheth. when mephibosheth came to david, he bowed to him in fear and said, "i am your servant." but david said, "don't be afraid! i've asked you to come so that i can be kind to you because of my vow to your father, jonathan." David not only was kind-hearted to mephibosheth, but he also gave him all the land that once belonged to saul. then he invited mephibosheth to come live in the palace with him! Mephibosheth fell on the ground before david. "Should the king show kindness to a dead dog like me?" he asked. the end of the chapter tells us that from that point on mephibosheth ate regularly with david, and david treated him as his own son.

as i read that, i became overwhelmed with the love that God has for me...for all of us. i mean, i'm nothing... i am just a poor, lame girl...a dead dog. but one day, God called my name. he asked for me..."is alicia still alive because i want her with me...i want to invite her to my table...i want to treat her like she were my own." and though i was broken and worthless to everyone else, he showed me favor and carried me to his table. he seated me where i don't belong. thank you, Lord, for inviting me. thank you for seeing past all of my brokenness. thank you for being faithful to the promise that you made when you sent your son, Jesus Christ to save me. thank you for not throwing me out when you see how imperfect i am. thank you. thank you. thank you. i can never say it enough. you are my king.

"Carried to the Table" (Leeland)

Wounded and forsaken
I was shattered by the fall
Broken and forgotten
Feeling lost and all alone
Summoned by the King
Into the Master’s courts
Lifted by the Savior
And cradled in His arms

I was carried to the table
Seated where I don’t belong
Carried to the table
Swept away by His love
And I don’t see my brokenness anymore
When I’m seated at the table of the Lord
I’m carried to the table
The table of the Lord

Fighting thoughts of fear
And wondering why He called my name
Am I good enough to share this cup
This world has left me lame
Even in my weakness
The Savior called my name
In His Holy presence
I’m healed and unashamed

I was carried to the table
Seated where I don't belong
Carried to the table
Swept away by his love
And I don't see my brokenness anymore
When I'm seated at the table of the Lord
Carried to the table
The table of the Lord

Thursday, July 24, 2008

"I Will Rescue You" (Plus One)

When your days are dark
And your nights are cold
When you've just about lost all your faith
When your will is gone
And your heart is torn
Cause nothing is going your way
When the world has got you trapped
And you can't find that open door
If you're ever in a battle
And you just can't fight no more

I will rescue you
I will rescue you
I will shelter you from the rain
I will dry your tears
Cast away your fears
And bring you to brighter days
Whenever you're lost and confused
Like a fairy tale come true
I will rescue you

If you ever feel
That you can't go on
When your life just becomes too hard
And the dreams you thought
Were within your reach
Suddenly seem so far
When the world is on your case
And you don't have a place to run
If the storm keeps getting stronger
And you cannot see the sun

I will rescue you
I will rescue you
I will shelter you from the rain
I will dry your tears
Cast away your fears
And bring you to brighter days
Whenever you're lost and confused
Like a fairytale come true
I will rescue you

And it don't matter where you are
I'll be by your side
I'll be the rock that you can lean on
I'll be your guide

Man...tonight my heart is heavy, and I was drawn back to the blog. I know, I know...I haven't posted for over a month. Anyway, here I am sitting on my couch thinking. I'm thinking about how sometimes things don't turn out like we planned... how sometimes life creeps up and bites us and we don't know why, but we still have to deal. What a strange week this has been... I know I don't make much sense. Anyway, this song popped into my head and I thought I would share it. Maybe someone reading will understand

P.S. You know who you are, and you know how much I love you!!! You'll always be my family. And I will always be there to hold your hand!